Praying for a Passover

With all due respect to my Jewish friends I’ve been praying for years for a kind of Passover. In 5th grade Maggie made a little clay woman/girl with a maroon dress and blue eyes. She never got the hair on her and wanted to toss her when she brought it home. Well, I don’t think so! This is fine art! A treasure! I’ve kept this girl with no hair in our bedroom, on a dresser and dust her every two weeks with all my other treasures. Every two weeks as I’ve dusted her I’ve given up a little prayer to the cancer gods that they pass me by. She became a talisman of sorts. And even up to yesterday, though I do have cancer, I wasn’t feeling nauseous, so I was thinking…deep down…cause you can’t say it out loud…maybe it won’t fall out. I know it’s just hair, I know it will grow back…but damn. It’s coming out. Not in chunks but in small handfuls for sure, 7,8,9 strands at a time, repeatedly. Every time I run my hand through my hair, hair will come out. I slept in a cap (thanks Anita!!) so I wouldn’t wake up with it all over the bed. Today I wore a short pony tail so I’d resist skimming my hand through my hair and counting the strands. I have not been passed over.

Jennifer and I went to get our toes done this morning (thanks Turtle and Salmon families for our gift certificates!!!). She brought me a hat. It fit right over my little pony tail, it’s soft and quite comfortable. It is a tannish-brownish color and she appliquéd a darling flower onto it! I love it!

Yesterday Missa and Lisa D dropped by and Missa had knit me a hat, it’s adorable and is my one of my favorite shades of green. It is also soft, made from cotton, silk and bamboo! I love my new hats and I will wear them and try to leave the house.

My goal is to keep hold of as many strands as I can until Monday evening. I have plans both tomorrow and Monday and would love to have hair. Tuesday I have chemo, I’ll be in good company there with no hair. Wish me luck!

love to you all

Janet